It's very clear I am a terrible blogger. I think my problem is that I feel the need to write too much, so when I feel like writing, I know I'll end up writing a lot, and then I'm just too lazy to write. But the problem is that since I never write, I always have too much to catch up on... so the updates are never really that great. Just whatever I'm really happy/sad/mad/excited about at the moment.
Tonight, and I'd say for the past few weeks, I have felt every single one of those emotions. I am happy and very thankful for so many reasons. A year ago, Aaron was in Iraq and I was MISERABLE. And he has been home for almost a whole year. Time flies when you're not counting down the days of a deployment. We got "remarried" in a church with all our friends and family by our sides. It was a "bit" stressful, but everything was beautiful, and we have some great memories of the day. Both families are wonderful. Ayden, Ava, Alec, and Korbyn are all getting so big, and it's SO fun watching them become little people right before our eyes. Aaron's family is great, and Lexy is hilarious like always. Claire Francis is still very funny, and still pretty much 100% focused on food. I started a new job, which I count my lucky stars for every day. We bought a house... two cars... some non-used furniture... lots of paintings and rugs, grass seed and plants, decorations and groceries... and all the normal stuff a normal couple does. I always wondered if I could truly be domesticated. But I haven't looked back. :)
The last few weeks have had some sad AND mad moments, that is for sure. All the items mentioned above are GREAT things... but there are just a lot of happy things to list. And lots of happy can mean lots of stress. Oh yeah, did I mention I'm having a BABY??? I can't believe I actually forgot that part. It's the whole reason for the blog.
Anyways, all this change has really put us to the test... and I hope we pass. Since Aaron and I met (really truly since our 3rd date), we have passionately loved each other... we have been each other's best friends... and we have pushed each other to be better people and to try harder than we could have ever imagined. We still do that.
Tonight there are remnants of happy, sad, and even mad. I am too much of a dweller, so when I sit by myself and dwell, it's really hard telling what I'll come up with. But tonight, even with all the remnants and all the dwelling... I am EXCITED. Tomorrow we have our 2nd Ultrasound, and if we're lucky, we will find out whether little Peanut is a girl or a boy. I can't wait!!!!! I've tried really hard to maintain some calm about this pregnancy, just because it's so dang scary and if something bad happens I really do think my heart will never heal.
But tonight I am excited. Raena Joy or Wessley James... I don't even care who you are or what you look like, or if you're chocolate or vanilla, or if you run fast, or if you can sing, or if you hate Math, or if you throw fits in Target... Mommy is going to love you so much. I can't wait to meet you!!!!!!!
