27 Dresses

I guess "they" deleted my previous blog. I guess I forgot about the previous blog. I guess I thought I didn't need to write. But I do.

I write when I have "aha" moments... or when I am sad... or when I am thankful... or when I am just FULL of thoughts.

Tonight I am a little bit of all those things... Just to sum it up, since I'm new to this, and we have a whole lot of catching up to do... Here is a list of what is going on in my life:

1.) I have decided to change my life plan. Communication/Spanish Major, Non-profit leadership Minor... goes to work for a healthcare software company for ONE year. Then decides to go to Medical School. And off I go, sitting in 7:00 a.m. class next to a bunch of sweaty, chubby faced, beer breath 18 year old boys... But I'm loving it. If I could only get some sleep.

2.) I am about ready to watch my family MULTIPLY, as my parents are adopting two (I would say something else, but I can't because it's still a secret) beautiful babies... "A" and "A" as my mom calls them on her blog, are seriously the best things EVER.

3.) Nope, not getting married anytime soon. Thought I would seriously be married with a kid popped out by now... living in a suburb somewhere with a white picket fence. Claire Francis (my lovely little border collie pit bull) would maybe even have a playmate. But that is not where I am. And if you have ever read my dating memoir, you'll know that things haven't really gotten any better since. I've been a dataholic... dated jerks, pigs, crazies, sweethearts, smelly ones, cute ones, hairy ones, bald ones, old ones, married ones (I didn't know he was married thank you very much... WHAT AN ASS), immature ones, self-centered ones, ones with Daddy complexes, ones with MOMMY complexes, jealous ones, seriously intelligent ones, emotionally unavailable ones, ones who I thought I could LOVE. But obviously I didn't. Here I am.

4.) I have a roommate now who I love. There is a reason she is living with me. We both have a really rough year ahead, so it's a GOD thing that she is here to get me through it and I am here to help her survive.

5.) I'm watching 27 Dresses... for the second time tonight. Not the movie that I should have watched, considering I'm in a really foul mood.... and I actually had to delete the remaining statements. Wow, I'm crabby!

6.) I did a triathlon this summer. Almost died, but I LOVED it. Then I signed up for another one... and I skipped it.

7.) I really just want to go live in Haiti in a grass hut and take care of people. Or go work in the Kansas City Free Health Clinic. Or maybe save the world or something. I really just need to pass my pre-med classes... and get rid of my superficial selfishness.

8.) I go from literally working out two hours a day and eating well... feeling great... to chowing on Taco Bell, popsicles, pudding, noodles, peanut butter, and basically whatever I can get my hands on. I think I'm really struggling right now. With self confidence, body image, you know the normal stuff. Just struggling.

9.) I've been in 5 weddings now... brought a date to one of them (the man I thought I would have children with), and all that did was solidify the fact that HE WAS NOT THE ONE. Since then, I've just taken advantage of the open bars and/or skeeted out as early as possible.

10.) Did I tell you I shouldn't have watched this stupid movie? What a Debbie Downer.